In loving memory…
Never have I experienced losing someone close to me, not until 19 days ago when my Lolo Mading left the mortal world to be with the Father in heaven.
It was painful for us because for two years he lived with us and we took care of him like a baby and in those two weeks that he was taken away from us we didn’t know what happened to him. Two weeks before he passed away, his doctor declared he was well enough and by looking at Lolo and talking to him, we know the doctor could not possibly be wrong and that is why his death came as a surprise to us.
I feel sad that I did not get the chance to be there for him when he breathe his last. I guess this is not only the product of manipulation by some people with ulterior motives. Maybe this is also how God wanted it to be just like everything is as how they should be.
No words can capture the hurt, anger and sadness that I still feel sometimes. Even though I did not attend your funeral, God knows how I cried my hurts and anger before solemnly grieving. I have never believed in ghosts but for once I wanted to believe in hoping that you would appear in such form so I can talk to you and ask you all these questions in my heart.
That day I dreamt of you telling me that you’re okay, only then I began to have some peace of mind. Day by day in prayer I began to accept the things God allowed to happen even though I really do not understand. The only thought that comforts me is that you already found peace in heaven.
But I still miss you Lolo… 😦
Thank you for all these memories.
I will hold on to these until I see you again…
I love you Lolo.. forever and always.